The Skepticism of St. Thomas and Finding Faith Through Doubt

St. Thomas

St. Thomas

St. Thomas is one the apostles I can most easily identify with due to his skepticism on the resurrection of Jesus:

“Unless I see the mark of the nails in his hands and put my finger into the nailmarks and put my hand into his side, I will not believe.”

This type of statement is what I likely would have said if I was St. Thomas:

“I had put my whole life into believing a charasmatic leader that I thought was going to be a prophet to lead Israel to freedom from Roman occupation.  My leader was summarily executed during Passover by the Roman authorities.  I was afraid for my life.  My colleagues were delusional, taking about “seeing our leader”.  That was impossible.  I saw him crucified.  I am a pious Jew.  People do not rise from the dead, except perhaps at the end of times.  Peter, John mentally ill and seeing things that cannot exist.  I have no occupation or home to return to, and I am surrounded by crazy people.”

Such thoughts must have been going through the minds of St. Thomas . . . until everything changed when he saw the Risen Christ.  The story of Christianity has been around for 2,000 years and has become so familiar that we are desensitized to its profoundly shocking origins and message.  Many believers take the Christian story for granted and non-believers view it as a collection of superstitious myths that should be relegated to history.  The story of St. Thomas reminds us that the Christian story of God becoming Incarnate in the form of a poor peasant from a backwater town in the Roman Empire, having a short public ministry, being executed in a gruesome manner and rising in a new spiritual and material form was as absurd to the original disciples as it would sound to us today.  In fact it is so absurd, if there were not hundreds of personal witnesses who have changed their life in ways that are counter-intuitive, it would not be believable.

For St. Thomas, it was not believable, so he publicly questioned those who claimed it was.  Ultimately, the Risen Christ appeared to Thomas and he believed.  However, the lesson is that it is important to ask questions and to confront our doubts, as these doubts can lead us to a deeper understanding of our faith and a deeper relationship with Christ.  As Pope Benedict XVI said about Thomas in his wonderful reflections on the apostles:

“his question also confers upon us the right, so to speak, to ask Jesus for explanations. We often do not understand him. Let us be brave enough to say: “I do not understand you, Lord; listen to me, help me to understand.”  In such a way, with this frankness which is the true way of praying, of speaking to Jesus, we express our meager capacity to understand and at the same time place ourselves in the trusting attitude of someone who expects light and strength from the One able to provide them.” (Benedict XVI, Pope (2011-03-04). Jesus, the Apostles and the Early Church (pp. 92-93). Ignatius Press. Kindle Edition).

We knew very little about the historical life of St. Thomas.  According to tradition, his evangelization covered a large territory, eventually reaching India.  Thomas reached Muziris, India in 52 AD and baptized several people who are today known as Saint Thomas Christians or Nasranis. After his murder and death by spear in India, the remaining relics of Saint Thomas the Apostle were enshrined as far as Mesopotamia in the 3rd century, and later moved to various places. In 1258 they were brought to Abruzzo, in Ortona, Italy, where they have been held in the Church of Saint Thomas the Apostle. He is often regarded as the Patron Saint of India, and the name Thomas remains quite popular among Saint Thomas Christians of India.

Tradition holds that St. Thomas was killed in India in 72 AD, attaining martyrdom at St. Thomas Mount near Mylapore (part of Chennai, capital of Tamil Nadu). He was buried on the site of Chennai’s San Thome Basilica in the Dioceses of Saint Thomas of Mylapore. The Acts of Thomas and oral traditions (only recorded in writing centuries later) provide weak and unreliable evidence but the tradition is that Thomas, having aroused the hostility of the local priests by making converts, fled to St. Thomas’s Mount four miles southwest of Mylapore. He was supposedly followed by his persecutors, who transfixed him with a lance as he prayed kneeling on a stone. His body was brought to Mylapore and buried inside the church he had built. The present Basilica is on this spot. 

About William Ockham

I am a father of two with eclectic interests in theology, philosophy and sports. I chose the pseudonym William Ockham in honor of his contributions to philosophy, specifically Occam's Razor, and its contributions to modern scientific theory. My blog ( explores Ignatian Spirituality and the intersection of faith, science and reason through the life and writings of Pierre Teilhard de Chardin (pictured above).
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6 Responses to The Skepticism of St. Thomas and Finding Faith Through Doubt

  1. Lynda says:

    I appreciate St. Thomas’ courage and authenticity in expressing his doubts for it opens the door for all of us. There is no merit in accepting what others say about Jesus unless we have had a true experience with Christ ourselves. Our faith is based on a transformative experience and relationship with the living Christ.

  2. Lynda, thank you for your insights. I agree that authentic Christianity is based upon a personal relationship with Christ. It took me a long time to understand that. God had been knocking at my door for many years but when I finally opened up to the personal relationship with Christ, my whole world changed. I feel like I had been living the allegory of Plato’s cave where the men finally come up to see the sunlight rather than looking at the shadows. I can now understand why so many stories’ of Jesus’ healing ministry involve making the blind see.

  3. I vividly remember the moment, about ten years ago now I suppose, when I was listening to the reading of the “Doubting Thomas” passage at Sunday mass during the Easter season, when I had this lightning-bolt realization: we may look down on Thomas for his doubts, but Jesus didn’t. Jesus didn’t reject Thomas for has lack of faith, or insist that he believe without evidence. Jesus met Thomas where he was.

    As Jesus always did tend to meet people where they were, so he could gently encourage them to the next step along the way.

    I consider Thomas to be the patron saint of scientists, even though he isn’t officially.

    • Thank you so much for stopping by! I love your excellent blog I look forward to reading your thoughts as you continue your theology studies and your life journey.

      Also, I just noticed from you site that you like science fiction. Have you read anything by Julian May? I ask because her “Galactic Milieu” and “Pliocene Exile” series have strong theological themes and Gaudete Sunday has a unique special meaning in her writings.

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